just feel so lonely tonight. a lot going through my mind. a lot has happened in the past 3 and a half hours. the song red by taylor swift rings through my brain. word for word is how i feel right now. idk. just tonight brought back too many memories that were long gone. had been gone for awhile. didnt even think they still existed. idk... they can't exist its not possible. need to put them back out to see for good. where i thought they were. just urrgghh idk...just wish i had someone to talk to, to pour my heart out too. idk just out of it. off to bed here shortly. back to the work thing in the am. wish i could take a long vacation by myself...
