sooooo i don't even know where to begin. haven't wrote a new blog in forever. i feel numb at the moment. and there is no reason. the past 2 days i have stayed in my hole sleeping. and i have to be back at work in the morning. really don't wanna go back to work but i have no choice. i am trying to put into words how i am feeling right now. but i can't i feel numb. there is absolutely nothing running through my mind at the moment. have never felt like this in my life. kinda taken aback. made me tired and out of it.. guess i am going to bed. maybe tomorrow something will flow through this brain of mind. some emotion. laughter. something. i haven't laughed in 2 days. kinda sucks. i have never gone a day in my life without laughing. i need to feel something....
